Thursday, January 29, 2009


I like the smell of rain...

And it's raining now...

Cat & dog.

Friday, January 23, 2009


I'd called.

From morning to noon,
then afternoon.

'Cik, surgical clinic engaged lah'

'Sorry miss, engaged'

'Doctor tengah attend patient, nanti panggil balik ye...'

And a few times more.

- Saya call regarding my biopsy and the date for my surgery hari selasa hari tu but was told to call today...

'Kenapa call petang ye. Hari tu saya bagitahu pagi... Doctor dah tak da kat clinic'

- .......


Sunday, January 4, 2009


I’m amazed.
At how one could laugh heartily
When another is in so deep a misery.

I’m amazed.
At how one could hurl so much of insults and accusations
When another lips are shut tight.

I’m amazed.
When you think of me as what you think I am
And not as whom I truly am.

I’m amazed.
Of the set perspectives you have of me
For I am not what you think I am.

I’m amazed.
At how you twist my motives
And understand them from what you want them to be.

I’m amazed.
For our way of thinking
Is of heaven and earth.


Strangled and choking
The air seems tight
The space is cramming

Nowhere to go

Stop ridiculing me behind my back
Stop thinking of me as what you want me to.

I’m me.

And if that’s so hard to do

Leave it.
And so be it.